What should I do about Arrow and Tunes?

[RE01 Rice Brian T. EM2]

I know that I've been leaving lots of people behind in the group, but I feel
_driven_ to develop the system to its final outcome.  Now that someone has
spoken about their frustrations with my efforts, I can't ignore this effect
I've been having on the group any longer.  And, yes, I've noticed how the
conversation has been worn thin.  Am I that terrible a member?

Is there another OS-like project which has a membership which could help me
better? I doubt it.  If someone understood the _entire_ Arrow system
intuitively as I do, but could also use laymen's terms, a skill that I have
(purposefully) forgotten, then I could focus on the Arrow development within
a smaller, isolated group without disturbing the general Tunes group, and
simultaneously assist in explaining Arrow as necessary.  However, I don't
see that I will be able to support both efforts simultaneously.

Perhaps I could instead drop out of the group and continue private
conversations with the people who can understand it, since I seem to have
lost relevance with the average member.  Socially, I seem to have moved away
from the herd, and the change seems neither bad nor good.

I do, however, have a clear understanding (I believe) of where the Arrow
system is going and how it will eventually reach Tunes-bootstrapping
capability and some level beyond that which I can't identify, something that
the group doesn't seem to have done.  I don't mean to be arrogant, but I
believe that I have ideas which Tunes can benefit from, and Tunes has
members who can understand my goals.  Both are rare things for either side,
and I'd like to make a better relationship for us both.

Any suggestions? (the usual pointless begging)
Would anyone help me?
Does anyone GIVE A DAMN about what I have to say any longer?

Please help me, because the agony of having these ideas without the ability
to express them to everyone and see them become reality is going to drive me
insane.  Can you imagine how terrible it would be if I died in the Persian
gulf with no one to make these ideas real?  I have so much of my life
invested in this that for all of it to go to waste would drive me to
suicide.